but not fine so IT HARD FOR ME TO SAY I'M NOT OKAY BECAUSE I HAVE NO ONE TO HEAR IT I'M EITHER JUDGE OR HAVE TO HIDE IT'S A MASK IT A LIE IT'S THE ONLY HOME I'VE EVER KNOW CAUSE BEING WHO I REALLY AM HAS ONLY LEFT ME MORE ALONE THE ONLY SYMPTOM YOU CAN SEE IS I DON"T WANT TO BE HERE NO ONE UNDERSTAND ME OR MY FEELING  I am not okay And I need you to see It i have so much to say and no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden Let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'm not okay I wish I had a scar Had a bruise on the surface any kind of proof That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse My life's by my someone abuse me I'm either judged or have to hide The only symptom you can see Is I don't wanna be alive I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake, I always feel like a burden Let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'll never have the words, I can't explain this hell But what if it kills me If I keep it to myself To myself